This article examines the racism and whiteness we felt attending a graduate course in the Fall of 2019. We revisit two moments of the course to highlight how academia is imbued with whiteness at a spatial and affectual level, exemplifying what we call "white affect." The first moment constitutes the official start of the course, the first day of class, whereas the second moment constitutes its unofficial end; a post-course Zoom meeting that occurred in the Summer of 2020. In each moment, we analyze how our white peers animated white affect through rhetorical devices that served to universalize their feelings and displace ours. Our personal accounts act as entry points into a larger conversation of how academia adopts the same racist-affectual-spatial relations that define western humanism, and how this adoption negatively impacts non-white students. We conclude by arguing that more of us should consider becoming, what Yao calls, "disaffected" within academia.